There was something about the way he.....

There was something about the way he stood there. Tall and strong and watching me. He looked so alone and so in need of love and care. There was something about the way he said Hi, I'm Josh, nice to meet you" that made me feel noticed and not so alone. He came towards me and asked for me to walk with him. We walked, and talked of ourselves, where we are from and where we live, where we want to go, and who we want to be. I knew instantly I wanted to share my life with him, every minute, every detail. He was handsome, with beautiful eyes. He was intense, sexy and alive, yet quiet and refined. I saw in him the things I wished I could be. It was on that walk I realized many things. I realized I could be safe, protected, and loved. That maybe I was worth something, and not completely alone. I had found someone to whom I wasn't invisible, and that was a rare find. I hardly said a word, because I am so shy, but he knew me so quickly, he understood me completely. He loved me too, from the moment we met. Since that day the struggles have piled up greatly. But I still love him more than a person could imagine, I'd be nothing without him. He is my husband, the love of my life. He is the best daddy, best lover, best person I know. Everyday I remember that day we first met, when all of my problems melted away. Why did it have to get rough on the way? If only it was always perfect, just like that day. I loved him then, and now, and forever. I couldn't live without him by my side. To think I did almost lose him haunts me all day and night. He will get better and so will I. We will both have the life we saw on that day. Full of love and laughter from us and the kids. He will smile and the world will light up. My prince charming will love me for the good and the bad and all that I am.

I Believe...

I believe that every single thing a person does in life is a choice, excuses should not be made for a person’s decisions.

I believe in not apologizing for something unless you intend to not do it again. Actions speak louder than words.

I believe in God and that He has given me great joys in life and has held me and comforted me in times of darkness.

I believe that playing with your kids is more important than anything else you could possibly have to do on any given day. Parenting should be the job that you put the most the most effort into.

I believe that integrity is the most important value a person should have. Without integrity and honesty a person has nothing.

I believe that abortion is wrong and that only God should decide who lives and who does not.

I know that I am a ninja, a real one.

The world would come crashing down without polka dots and glitter.

I believe that my dishes are not clean unless I wash them 3 times before running them through the dishwasher twice. I am not sure if this is a belief or my OCD but either way my family says it is outrageous.

I cannot believe the way people act and the epic moral downfall that has occurred in society.

I do not believe that dinosaurs ever existed.

I do not judge people. It is not my place and for me to judge them it is just as bad and harmful as what they are doing wrong. Time is too precious to waste on hate, jealousy, and envy, which is where most judgment comes from.

I always go the extra mile and give whatever I am doing my best, even if I don’t want to be doing it. I do everything with joy in my heart. If I do something, I do it right. Why waste time doing something if I don’t do it well. Doing your best should be a trademark.

I try to make a difference in at least one person’s life every day. It can be a compliment to a stranger or a random act of kindness for someone I know, just a smile or even a gift. One of the biggest rewards in life comes from giving yourself to others. Life isn’t meant to be selfish.

Every day is an opportunity to better myself. I am constantly trying new things and to improve my attitudes, my health, and my reactions to things. Even things that don’t need to be changed can be improved and I do it now because today will never happen again.

As a writer I want to learn from my mistakes. Failing at something doesn’t make you a failure.

When writing I want to not overlook the beauty of small moments. Taking the time to see things and write about them no matter how small they are can be huge.

I would never be unforgiving. I don’t hold grudges and I believe forgiveness is more for me than for the person who hurt me.

I would never go bungee jumping or do anything more than 3 feet off of the ground, and that is for sure.

There are very few things I would not do.